you're a mystery yourself

27 April, 2010

11:55 PM

I'd rather have silence than have accusations.

This HAS GOT TO END...really.....

Im not believing in what you say abt me, but im rly bothered cuz its getting reeeaaall irritating. This has occurred a lot, esp lately. I've restrained my anger, made a face...but youve to pursue this. WHY? Why would you or yall put down someone this way? You say it a few times i get it, but why do you hv to go put this label on me as if everything is my fault. Why, WHY IN THE WORLD cant it be yours?

Okay, so lets say im a bit on the plumper side, i go in a lift with many other ppl and it jams. That is my fault?

Say things once to let the person know is okay.
Saying it a few times cuz you get reminded is still okay.
Saying it repetively for x no. of times when the party alr knows/cant change/gets disturbed?

What point you getting at?..
Cant stand me? What if im not being able to stand you lk tt either?
And dont spread the word to more people? It's lk the finishing salt added to the wound.
Hurting, you know.

I dont lk it tt you made it sound as tho its entirely my fault. Okay you MEANT tt. But how does it feel to hv someone say your chr trait (if it is one) is a fault?

Im jz different okay. We all are.

I appreciate others' patience and understanding instead of all these bickering which DOESNT EVEN HELP. If you think tt is helping, i can assure you, thr are lots of better ways. Pls pls pls a million times, dont stick to this way of yours. It's alr infuriating now. I dont know why im holding back for telling you off...but i want to. I want you to know how i feel.

Today was another rather lousy day. It's lk the less close frens you hv, the more your happiness lvl drops.... Thank God i still hv ppl to turn to. After schl, i was on FB with Dee... Realised how impt human interaction is to me. From the half-dead me, my spirits kinda lightened after speaking to her abt random stuffs. Thanks for John too, who's lk the good friend, and other ppl who changed my gloom to smiles. When Wei-Ming and Chun You approached me ytd, jz to ask if i was heading home...i was also happy. It's jz these little things tt brighten up my colourless schl life now.

And of course, cck!
Even tho we dont sms much, or we arent with each other, but i know youre thr... Thanks for thinking of me often, even when my presence dont make a difference to many.... Because of you, i feel important..

♥ loves.