you're a mystery yourself

05 August, 2009

11:35 PM

When i lie, i might not sound sincere when others pick up stutters or little faults in my words.But even when im speaking from my heart, i get doubted. The truth...doubted? I dont know what else to say.

I know for myself that i do suspect that others are lying; i do assume, but you dont hv to go to the extend of accusing me and my friends... I detest it when this happens time and time again. What happened to trust?

They say seeing is believing. Well, i I beg to differ, reason being what we see might not be exactly whats going on. We usually take what we see as what rly happened, so much so sometimes we forget to clarify that whatever is before us, and also whatever we think are right. Our mind sometimes blind us from the facts. At times we choose what we rly want to see or get...so conflicts take place...followed by misunderstandings, perhaps.

Sigh.

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Today, i got reminded of my past. I got that very same feeling... I wanted so much to cry...but i cant. History seems to keep repeating itself. It's impossible to ensure that the same issue wont occur agn. I mean, i cant force friendships, can i? It's not a one sided thing.

When i help my friends, i dont expect a return...i just want to help. I just feel like helping. I dont know why...but i just do. And im kinda doing to others what i'd like others to do unto me. I do hv times im in need of help, and at those points in life, i'd rly want others to help me out. However, i dont always hv someone to rely on (besides God)...so whenever someone needs help, i'll try my best to do smth within my means. I dislike seeing my friends struggling with their work or life...looking at them, i get emotionally affected too.

It rly feels great to hv somebody that cares abt you, or one that able to guide you thru your tough periods. Even if i dont get that feeling of being loved, i want others to feel that from me...to see God's image in me, cuz im made to be like Him. I want them to know that God loves them, and that they too are, and will be blessed by Him.

As sdhihjkewdp as i can be now...i know that they're ppl i can count on, and share my thoughts with. Though i may not be the one of the most important figures in their life (and i actually feel insignificant and left out bcuz of that...), but still i thank God for them.

(:

♥ loves.