you're a mystery yourself

23 March, 2009

1:22 PM

If i knew, i wouldn't be in so much suffering.

20th Mar:
Visiting the dentists wasn't so frightening after all. They were both friendly. After which, i had 1.50 chicken rice from Serangoon interchange just opposite the Mcdonalds. (The man slicing the chicken looked so handsome!) That lunch was good...but it's the last time i ate without trouble up till now. Dinner was dreaded.

21st Mar:
I can't even swallow my saliva properly, cuz im afraid of feeling the ekahs. More what ifs filled my mind. Meals were painful processes. I can't talk properly. MSN has become my best fren.

22nd Mar:
It was intense. I was by now, craving for a lot of food. I don't want porridge anymore. Every bite was hard. I thought of buying baby food. I had to write notes to make ppl understand me. At night, they suddenly burned. I prayed, they prayed and i managed to go to sleep.

Today:
Dad asked me what i wanted to eat. I thought to myself: i want to eat fishballs, rice, curry, icecream, chocolate, jelly, mushrooms, fish, veggies, fruits etc etc.......esp. MEAT. Bcuz of this stupid thing, my teeth are affected. My diet is affected. My health is affected. My LIFE is affected.

I want food. I need God.

♥ loves.