you're a mystery yourself

01 June, 2008

9:45 PM

Rmb i wrote in my last wk's post that Michelle was highhhh at the bus stop? She's actually basically high all the time, haha. Just figured that out when Karmen had a meeting with her church ministry. While we waited, Mich was doing a little impatient "dance". I was like, "Imagine i wasn't around, and you're doing THAT." Then she laughed and said she wouldn't dare to. Lol.

And after church, i went out with Karmen. Jos wanted to eat out with me but she ended up running back to her cell and just...left -.- Anw, Karmen and i got to Heartland mall's Cosmo smth to eat. As usual, i had the bland Fish & Chips. I had to pay extra for fries! Grr! And she had spicy cheese baked rice. Yea, it was spicy. They put like 3 big red chilies and 2 green chilies? Ugh, i don't know what else they put inside.

Later, i ate minimelts, visited my cute lil' bearies at the flower shop on the 3rd lvl yet AGAIN. It's like my 1st...2nd...3rd...4th or 5th time thr? Heh. They're rly so cute, but they come in a set with the bouquet, and i can't just buy one. And they're so ex. So SAD! Karmen didn't even bother sympathising me lo... Haha.

Then we parted with my furry friends and went around the mall looking for a bday gift for Karmen's 10-yr-old cousin. And we don't know what to get for a guy. It's like what we like may not be what he likes and what he likes may not be what we like. Yaya, SO HARD TO CHOOSE. In the end, we decided to go to Popular to buy my EL 10 yr series first. I got scratched by books. *sigh* Then, we browsed some cards. Karmen ended up buying some lame froggie card for her cousie, haha. But it was fine.

*I hope she doesn't find my blog* Lalala (:

The evening.
Talked to Josiah and played UNO on MSN. It's a total game on luck. He had so many 'draw 4's and all sorts of power cards, while i didn't even hv a 'draw 2'...only a 'skip' -.- He won the first round and i won the next, and he said he'll be away for 15 mins.

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He was back 5 mins later, and wanted to play my all-time favourite - Guinness Speedpool challenge. It's hard to get him to play that cos at one period, i only played that game and Minesweeper. HAHA, looks like i'm the only one that won't get bored by those two games. But still, my aiming wasn't as good this time. A ball went in, and another. When it was my turn, the ball refused to go in. It was like an ant near the stupid hole. Sooo, he got that ball in easily. DKWSHDFWHFWKLH. He won.

The next round, Josiah was striking, but we ended on par cos i used powershot. YAY. He got ball '7' in afterwards, and only nos. 4 and 2 were left. BOOOO, can't win anymore. And and, in btwn the game, the comp. called me 'slowpoke' cos i was too slow. Haha, he was laughing when i told him. But i was doing other stuff okay. Uhhuh, uhhuh, uhhuh uhhuh uhhuh. I couldn't score, and he after he managed the '4' in, he had to go. To watch tv. He leaves like that most of the time -.-

When jealousy smoothed into me, I felt the splintering along the fissure line in my heart as the smaller part wrenched itself away from the whole. I experienced the physical pain, but I don't know why I felt it. I tell myself to see him as and older brother, a significant role model - I already knew we could grow nothing more than a friendship - but my heart took control and confusion took over me. It was hard for me then, and even now, but I think it'll be better if we just remain as very good friends, or best friends. Nothing more. I loved him, much more than i should, but yet still nowhere near enough...

♥ loves.