you're a mystery yourself

22 May, 2008

10:20 PM

All righty. I shall keep this post short and sweet (:

I need to be like Sharlene and Lobby and like all those super duper disciplined ppl out thr!
Sharlene concentrated so much on the midyrs that she wasn't aware of her surroundings, or couldn't bother abt it cos studies was more impt at that point. And today, what Cheryl said totally supported Sharlene's decision: to FOCUS on studies and studies only.

Yep, i ought to, but it's hard cos i have lots of distractions. These few days have been awful for me. I keep a smile thr, but when i'm alone or like when i was only with Cheryl at one part of today, i couldn't hold the tears...

They were too much for me, and i was restricting them to flow bcos my father said i shldn't cry. He didn't allow me to(!) Ohwells, a fifteen-yr-old has her own share of suffering and crying was just to let go. Come to think of it, i DO have the right to cry...why shld i think of what others want me to be - a strong individual, but actually inside, i'm such a loser bcos i refuse to let it go and let all my hurt pile up. It'll only get worse, wouldn't it?

Another thing, Chinese O lvls is coming soon and in case some of you haven't noticed, i've been working, but still...not hard enough. And thr are a lot of things i need to buck up in. I got 3o+ for my L1R5... Scary, huh? The 'O's is up in a few mths, man. Sooooo, i'll try to keep out of the comp. and mug!

Also, don't give up on yourself (*don't give up on myself*) cos we all are fortunate. Think abt those lives which were lost in the cyclone in Myanmar, and the earthquake in Sichuan... Some kids have no more chance to work hard, no more chance to excel in their studies, no more chance to get scoldings from their parents bcos of their results, no more chance to live again.

But we do.

We still have to time to do our best, make miracles happen, do ourselves (and God) proud, and we still have a life to live. Live it well ppl, live it well.

It's excruciating to hear that so many lives were lost in the tragedy that took place in Myanmar and China. I symphatise the families whose loved ones were lost, but i can't understand the pain enough, tho. I wonder if they're going to soak themselves in pity, or pick themselves up and start anew all over again. It will be difficult, but it beats doing nth abt anything.

Ahh, i hate sin even more now. If sin didn't exist, there wouldn't be such things taking place in the world! And innocent lives wouldn't need to suffer for it! Ah, sin. I HATE YOU.

Anw, do donate to the victims. I alr have (:

Uh, guess the post turned out to be pretty long after all. Lalala.

♥ loves.