you're a mystery yourself

22 November, 2007

10:02 PM

I hadn't paid attention until now...that when you're not here, there's always this emptiness i feel. When you leave my side, i'll keep thinking of you; wondering when you'd return. Sometimes i really wish i hadn't know you, maybe trying to wish you weren't ever there. But since this fact can never be undone, and memories of you can't be erased, i guess i'll just leave it alone. Do you know how much it kills to forget someone? It's like treating everything like it didn't happen, pretending that that somebody didn't exist. Like losing a friend, a confidant, a special someone. More difficult than it sounds. And can you actually do it? The more you think of it, the more reminisces will come flooding back. Well, since you alr stepped in my life, accepting you is the only way. I'll pray for you almost everyday, hoping that you're well and happy. It seems i'm feeling something... something from my heart. It hurts when i don't hear for you, and i'll worry because i don't know if you're safe. When i see you cheerfully sharing stories about your day; when i see you contented, it lightens me up and i'll smile even if i don't get your joke. How's that? I mean it doesn't make sense. And maybe you won't understand but it's okay. I don't really comprehend either... ^^V

♥ loves.