you're a mystery yourself

10 October, 2007

5:14 PM

Yesterday, i broke out again and cried. All for God's people. But it wasn't as bad as last wk. Previously, my eyes went puffy and red. Well, i couldn't control my tears. I mean, every second, ppl all over the world are dying... as non-christians... Then they go to a place whr they don't belong! A place no one wants to go! WHY?! I felt so helpless. Here i am going to sch on wkdays, talking to friends, sleeping so peacefully while others are suffering so much cos they didn't believe in the Lord, the Saviour. And some, refuse to accept Him. Yes, i know it's hard just to change your religion like that but why... Why must they go" down". Doesn't God wants his ppl saved...? I know He gave us a choice; to choose whr we decide to go. I know it breaks His heart, even more than mine, to lose His ppl... Oh but why... Why don't they listen to You, God? I hate to see them forsake your "promised land" and take the road of pain. They didn't hv to end like that... There was i, crying in bed, doing nth. How pathetic. God, pls, OPEN DOORS! I still want to save Your ppl... Not all, but at least i will try. I don't want to lose my loved ones. And even strangers cos they're all the same. They're all YOUR PEOPLE! T~T

Today, during chapel, i cried. For a diff. reason. I was touched by the song "Through it all". I sang the first few sentences and water just continuously moisted my face. You see, the song goes like this:

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with your hands
And lead me in Your righteousness
And i, look to You.
And i, wait on you...

I sing to you Lord, a hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You never let me go
Through it all...

Ya, isn't this so very true? :D
At this pt. in my life, i'm feeling really pressurised, confused, blah blah blah.
But look, God's still thr for me! Even though sometimes friends aren't.
See how God LOVESSSSS us SOOOOOO much??
He loves YOU & ME! :D

♥ loves.