you're a mystery yourself

15 October, 2007

3:46 PM

The night before, my heart was hopelessly aching. I could feel it biting and the pain was just too hard to bear... Each time i'll just worry. Sometimes even without knowing... and i don't get why. I'm so confused. It's hurting now that you're not here... It's made worse that you don't know Daddy God. As i thought of you, i couldn't control my feelings. I'm sorry. But, but...the pain i have is absolutely nth compared to my Father. How will he feel when His children doesn't return to Him; when His dearies leave His side and refuse to accept Him...? *sobs* It's agonising to know that you can't be with the one you love. It's distressing to be uncertain of how your loved one is coping now - whether he's happy, needs understanding or if he's alive and well... I don't know the answers to these so... I just pray...cos i believe God shall and will watch over you, His dear child, though you're still ignorant. But be assured that He's always thr, nvr leaving your side. It seems you're the only one that can make me so sad yet keep me happy... At times, i wonder why would i like someone like you? I seriously dislike some of the things you do, but why? Why are you still impt. to me...? Those things you did hurts you and i just wanna keep you as far from them as possible. I hate them cos they're hurting...you. But will you stop doing them? Do you realise that they're bringing you harm? *Sigh* I guess i like you bcos of the way you are... That's why i want you to be safe..........................................

♥ loves.